Where Does Your Help Come From?

I will lift up mine eyes unto the hills, from whence cometh my help. My help cometh from the LORD, which made heaven and earth. ( Psalm 121:1-2)

I drove to a little town out in the country tonight to hear my Pastor preach. I drove alone, but managed to get to the church without too much trouble. There were 2-3 other carloads of people travelling back to Durham that I saw at the church, but rather than follow one of them, I decided to find my own way back. I have a pretty good sense of direction, and a good visual memory, but for some reason I had a hard time reversing my steps, and I actually had to turn around and go back at least 4 times.

I was determined to do things my way, even though I was low on gas and was travelling alone in the dark in the middle of nowhere (yes, I know i'm a city girl but it sure looked like the middle of nowhere to me). Dumb, I know, but in spite of all my years of education, I still seem to prefer to exercise my right to do stupid things.

Looking back on the experience, I realize that I often treat God this way too. It's like I'd rather go it alone and try things my way before I'm ready to acknowledge that I might actually need some help. Even when the road is dark, and in the depths of my spirit I know that I'm not really sure of the way, my first instinct is nearly always to look to self before God. Where's the logic in that?

Fortunately for me, God is always looking out for me, and is able to keep me from falling, in spite of my best attempts to throw myself into a pit. And what about those times when I do seek God's guidance first, yet still find myself struggling through a jungle, you ask? Simple. I know that God will never leave me nor forsake me, so that even when I can't see or feel him, I know that he's there and that he will take me to a place of clarity at exactly the right time.

From whence does YOUR help come from?

-AMR